New at this...

I'm very new at bleeding my heart on paper... saying things that I've held in so deeply for so long...

Sorry if I'm scattered, if I'm not organized - but I doubt anyone will read this - so it's just for me to write and clear the massive amount of pain. I'm hoping by putting this down on paper that it will erase some of the thoughts and open up more room to cope.

I don't know what is ahead for us... what our road will look like... only GOD does... and HEs been kinda quiet lately...