I can safely go where no one reads...

Well, let me think where things are now... my kids LUCY and ETHEL...

Lucy still quite sick - but weaning herself (with help of her docs) off all meds to see what is cauzing what - so much medication so many reactions. Don't know which is from the disease and what is from the drugs. SMART MOVE!

Ethel is still running around like a chicken without a head - trying to locate the path the LORD has laid out for her...

My soul mate is still a MAN... but is wonderful inspite of that fault. He tries the best he knows how...

I have to remember he is a person and not an extension of me... sometimes I forget that. I think he and I are one person... and forget that he is a feeling human being with his own wants and needs and desires.

Perhaps, I should get my head outa my butt and see life for what it is...

Lately, I've been made aware that it's not all sunshine and rainbows... and that it is actually quite harsh and bleak.

Before Lucy got sick - life was peachy. I prayed and got pretty much what I asked for... although I never wanted for fame and fortune.... but since Lucy moved away and got sick my life has been a roller coaster ride (on a full stomach) with no seat belt.

But this past couple weeks almost broke me... seems like when I pray - no one is listening... I don't get the strength I need from my prayers... maybe I'm asking for too much... maybe the LORD is getting tired of carrying me... maybe I'm just to thick to get what HE is trying to tell me...

I just need a hug... got any ?